Thankful?

Even though almost no one that I'm referring to is reading this blog, I really need to thank my family and friends.

It's been one of the most difficult weekends/weeks of my life, of all of our lives.

Though my grandmother seems to be more stable, the doctors still do not know what is wrong with her. They have been testing her since Friday night. Saturday was the worst. She seemed to be in a deep sleep. We could hear her breathing stop for a few seconds every ten breaths or so. Sunday and Monday she spoke and could move. She could open her eyes, though things are very blurry. She is confused sometimes, about who people are... people she has known her whole life, people she has given life to.

Now, she is back in a deep sleep. Who knows? She may come out of it at any time.

It's difficult to keep hope. But we have family. Even though we fight sometimes, when things get tough, we all know who will be there. Like my cousin told my uncle when they hugged for the first time in years, "life's too short."

I'm still planning on visiting Norwich from Thursday to Sunday. Part of me needs to go... to be with Blake and just have someone who completely understands me. The other part of me is scared to go anywhere.