Like a brick wall

Last night was terrible. My life is a mess and pretty chaotic, but I've never let it get to me before, but it's all coming to a head now.

Blake won't be here before the wedding. After graduation he is officially stationed in VT at his college. Which means he won't be able to come home for the two weeks between graduation and the wedding. He'll also be away two days before and most of the day of the wedding rehearsal. We can only pray his flight doesn't get delayed along the way.

It is terrible that he has to find a place to stay for two weeks, when his friends (except one) will all be home with their families. He really won't have anything to do up there but twiddle his thumbs and think about how awful the situation is. But it is my problem too, not just as someone who cares about him, but as someone who is planning his wedding. He won't be able to do any of the things I was counting on him for. And we won't be together in the days leading up to our wedding. He got a bit offended when I told him he would have to come home for a couple days to get a marriage license. But how many times have I driven to and back from Vermont?

Blake and I just have to stick together and we'll be all right, but right now, it's pretty overwhelming.